Happiness is what?

[Ha****]

I am lost somewhere. I lost myself without out any reason. I was happiest girl who love to do traveling,talking to everyone enjoy my own alone company. Was lover of fashion Now due to epidemic of COVID-19 it scary environment push me in anxiety and em on antidepressants so scary to think about it...Full closed myself I told Everyone I want to do something thing so open that finds me back...but no one listens me ...it's hard for me to come out...no body can understand me I just of 24 and you know I want to finish this antidepressants and find my happiness back.but having no idea what to do 

Lost my happiness

lost my interest

actually I forget or not able to recognise what actually is happiness, interest,goals etc

[Tine]

Hello @Hani,

what you describe is really tough and challenging. From what I have hear and read I think you are not alone.

Being honest to ourselves about the struggles we are facing it the first step on a undoubtedly long road. But as the old saying goes "a journey of 1.000 miles starts with a single step" and you are already on the path.

Maybe you can reflect on the question what you need at this very moment. Not in so distant future but something small and tangible right now.

Many blessings to you!

[Ha****]

@Tine but I need someone guidelines where I find small and tangible type of thing?

[Tine]

Here's a poem that I really like maybe it touches you too - maybe not. Maybe for you it's the warm water of a shower, a fresh breeze, your feet touching the ground as you walk, or like in the poem by Thích Nhất Hạnh - a cup of tea.

 

Tea meditation

 

You must be completely awake in the present to enjoy the tea.
Only in the awareness of the present, can your hands feel the pleasant warmth of the cup.
Only in the present, can you savor the aroma, taste the sweetness, appreciate the delicacy.

 

If you are ruminating about the past, or worrying about the future,

you will completely miss the experience of enjoying the cup of tea.
You will look down at the cup, and the tea will be gone.

Life is like that.

If you are not fully present, you will look around and it will be gone.
You will have missed the feel, the aroma, the delicacy and beauty of life.
It will seem to be speeding past you.

The past is finished.
Learn from it and let it go.
The future is not even here yet.

Plan for it, but do not waste your time worrying about it.
Worrying is worthless.

When you stop ruminating about what has already happened,

when you stop worrying about what might never happen,

then you will be in the present moment.

Then you will begin to experience joy in life.

[Sa****]

Start taking care of your self , start to love yourself, expectations regarding you by others is none of your business.