Death of my pet

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Hello

I'm new to this, so i don't really know how to do this. I just wanted to share my thoughts and feelings. English is not my first language so i apologize if something isn't written correctly.

 

My cat just died yesterday, she was already pretty old. I'm 20 yo. and she was in my life since i was 2 yo. It was already clear that she will die soon, but it still was hard to actually see it happen. On 2.10 we already saw that it is comming to an end. She lossed alot of muscles and didn't walk anymore. Over the night from the 2.10 to 3.10 she lost all kind of body fluids. So we (my mom an I) decided in the morning that we go to a docter and put her down. So at 2pm we went to the doctor. That was the first time I started crying and I didnt stopt until we left the clinic. During the whole procedure she was in my arms, she died in my arms. After that we drove to my dad's garden and buried her. Through the whole procedure I was crying and thought of all the things that i went through with her. She was there my whole childhood, i can't remember a life wothout her. The rest of the day I talked to my friends about what happend. I went to bed still sad, but not crying anymore.

Today i couldn't go to  school. I'm not crying and I feel numb. I have no enegy to do anything, even tho I sleept 10 hours. I dont feel hungry or any other normal human need. You could say im kinda lost. I dont know what to do. I know the death just happend, but I want to be able to properly grief. I already have depression an anxiety so i'm scared that this could lead to a big problem. I dont know how to cope with this. On top of all that I still have other Proplems/serious issus. So if someone has some advice on how i can cope with this i would be happy to hear about it.

[el****]

Hi there. I am tremendously sorry for the loss of your beloved cat. It’s clear she was a huge part of your life, you both grew up together. I am a cat mom myself and currently have a 5yr old who I love with my whole heart and soul. Reading your post made me feel emotional and so empathetic towards what you’re going through. Your cat lived around 18+ years which is incredible! It sounds like she had a very long and loving life with you as her cat mom, and I’m sure you brought her as much joy and love as she brought you. Try not to focus on the loss of your beautiful baby, but think about the joy of her life. Think about all the times you’ve shared with her, each time you have had a milestone and she has been there. The relationship you can build with a cat is phenomenal and truly something to be proud of, because cats can be so very selective with their humans! Im sorry you had to see your cat in the state she was in before she passed, but she is no longer in any discomfort or pain. She is free. Her soul is still very much alive and she will always be with you. Take time to mourn and to grieve because this is a huge loss you are experiencing. You are allowed to feel the way you do, and to take time off from school and whatever responsibilities you may stress over. You are experiencing the death of a beloved, and in this case it can be just as painful as losing a person. I know this will be one of the hardest things you have to do, but do it for your cat, for yourself, for your family, your future, and your future kitties! Cherish all the memories and hold them dear to your heart but do not feel on the loss. This chapter of your life has closed, and soon a new one will open, you must have faith in this process. It’s the circle of life. Regarding your depression and anxiety, do you have a support system for this? Also, remember that pain is TEMPORARY. We are constantly in a state of change, as is everything around us. The deep feelings of sadness will heal with time, I promise you. You have to be strong for your cat baby, and for yourself. Try be kind to yourself, even more so during this time. So nice things for yourself, take time out, listen to music that makes you feel good. I don’t know how this site works yet as I’ve literally just downloaded the app. Yours was the first post I saw, and I couldn’t scroll past it without leaving you a message. I hope this helps in some way. Please take care of yourself. I’m sending you love and healing 💕

[el****]

I’ve just realised I may have misgendered. *Cat dad. My apologies, I didn’t check the name or picture, I just assumed. Either way, the core of the message is still the same! Best of luck 🙏🏼

[el****]

Ok, now I’ve actually checked your profile and you are non binary. Please excuse my ignorance of making assumptions without checking the facts. Again, the overall theme of the message remains. This has been a helpful lesson for me!

[Ni****]

Hello Peety,

your post breaks my heart, because losing your furry companion who has been with you for most of your life is so hard! I have a 13 year old cat and I have always imagined what I would do when she died. I couldn't even finish that thought.

But what @eleno writes is right: Your little tiger had a wonderful long life by your side, you gave each other lots of love and she is still a happy kitty now who will continue to be with you in your heart.

What helps me when grieving for someone is to talk to him/her as often as possible, about your feelings and fears. Just taking some time, thinking of their purrs and especially thinking of all those wonderful moments you both had.

The pain inside you is still terribly big and overwhelming now, but it will get smaller with time and eventually you will realise that you will feel nothing but love. I send you lots of strength❣️